`mass convulsions` that girl's not right in the brain.

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

boo.

at e- club now. came back from school at around 4 plus.

freaking shacked. supposed to stay back today but the meeting got cancelled and it was postponed to tomorrow.

but i can't stay back tomorrow. gotta reach home early.

dang it.

oh wells.

i kind of hate my class. it's so noisy and it's really irritating that i'm afraid i might blow up and everyone will hate me. and i heard that some people say that i'm "acting big"

and that person doesn't realise that noone likes her. look around la girl and then tell me if you can find real friendship la okay?

aiya whatever la. you wanna say something come up to me and say it. don't say it behind my back. cause you definitely want me to hear it right? so just come up to me and say what you wanna say alright?

heh. okay anyway, today was really tiring cause i had social studies right

after chemistry. i had to listen alot and that was really tiring cause there were alot of distractions.

and then that mrs shum ( social studies teacher) was so freaking irritating. always stopping in between

her explanations about the topic that she was talking about. and she doesn't want to print for us notes. half the time i don't even understand what the fuck she's trying to say. anyway,

english was absolutely fun. had to so called debate with 3/8 (my class) and 3/7.

it was superb. helped me improve my lawyer skills. hahaha.

i want to be a lawyer. so it's proven. hahaha.

hmmm. oh well. it's gonna be a looonnnnnnnngggggggggg day tomorrow

so i gotta scoot.

when there's no one else,

look inside yourself,

like your oldest friend,

just trust the voice within.

i see death in life and life in death
5:25 PM

Friday, January 14, 2005

i'm in school now. i'm abit bored but it's okay cause today's the las day i'll be staying in the library for the whole day, and next week,it's back to school..

isn't that just perfect? sheesh.

I AM FREAKING SHACKED. i don;t know why but nowadays i get tired so easily and sometimes i just snap at people when they didn't do anything wrong.

to those people : i am terribly sorry. forgive me if i have offended you in any way.

okays, i still have my english assignment to finish and my malay assignment.

for my english, i have to finish it by this coming monday, for my malay, i have to finish it by the end of next week.

hmmm, i wonder how the sec three camp was. it must have been absolutely fantastic.

i really wanted to go but because of my stupid accident, i couldn't go.

haii. i have to wait so long until my life can be absolutely everything i wanted it to be.

okay, i am starting to crap and i am irritating myself.

so let's just drop the subject and talk about somethig else.

next year, i'll be doing my N levels and the year after that, i'll be doing my O levels.

two major exams are coming right at me.

better study like a freaking nerd face. hahaha.

oh well, that's about it i guess.

i'll blog another time then,

the teacher is nagging me.

-you should let me love you,

let me be the one who gives you everything you want and need.

good love and protection, make me your selection.

i see death in life and life in death
10:50 AM

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

okay. it's only the second week of school and it already sucks. like wtf.

the other sec threes are at camp and i'm not cause of my stupid dislocation.

according to my private doctor, she says that my knee has yet to be healed. it's not fully recovered YET.

i have to wait until June to do P.E, to dance and to do physical activities.

this fucking sucks.

i seriously need help but no one is ever there to do so.

i feel as if i'm lost in my own world.

okay, the stupid depression shit is coming back.

what the hell. i have to stay strong... for my mum.

i have to finish my english homework by next monday and i have

already finished reading two books - that is progress

i just have one last book to go and i'm free for the weekend. :) but for now,

i gotta do my own revision and stuffs and it fucking sucks.

cause it's basically BORING.

utter nonsense i tell you.

but the good thing is i got to make new freinds and talk.. ALOT.

oh well, i think i hate this life.

the world is black and heart's are cold

and there's no hope,

that's what we're told and we can't go back,

it won't be the same,

forever changed,

by the things we've seen.

i see death in life and life in death
5:05 PM